The same woodpile...two different seasons.
There is a lovely normalcy in the changing of the seasons. Something that can't be taken away. Every April, the rains will come, and then the sun and the flowers. The bird songs, when all winter has been silent and still. I love that spring is like waking up. Like taking a deep breath of clean air, when you've been huddled in cozy knit sweaters, drinking rich warm soup all winter, spring comes and lets you free. It opens the door to the world or rainboots in mud, hesitant flowers poking through, trees adorned with bright new green. Although sometimes I complain, I love where I live. You feel everything here more than you would if you were somewhere else. You are aware and awake to what is happening in the world outside. You know of growing plants, spreading roots, forest animals, and soft rain more than anyone in the city could. It's all very real & present.
Lately something that I have been thinking is that God always does what is right & best for you even if it is not what you want at the moment. And then you look back and you're like...good thing God didn't give me that trip I wanted, that boy I wanted, that grade I wanted, because you see that your life is right how it is supposed to be. This has been happening a lot to me recently. I set my heart on things and then am disappointed and angry with the Lord when they don't work out. But when I get over it, I realize that He will never withhold good things from me "just because." There is a reason for everything He does, everything He gives and doesn't give. He will always do what is RIGHT. Sometimes that gloriously collides with what I want, but always it is amazing to see how His plans are higher than mine, and His thoughts higher than mine. Today was one such of those disappointments, but I took a walk outside and picked flowers and thought about the seasons and the goodness of the Lord. My faith hasn't been the best lately but all I can say is that He is working through me. He uses what is around me to see again and again the good that He is doing in my life.
